Spring is Here!

3/22/14

Yesterday was the first day of spring. I don't know if I'm too excited about the fact that summer is approaching. These past few weeks have been fun, exciting, weird, sad, annoying, hectic, and so much more. Right now is a good time to write about my thoughts and more because I'm sitting in the cafeteria waiting for my little sister's results. She just had her music test. I don't exactly know where to start. My biggest dilemma at the moment has got to be not having the guts to talk to this guy. 

3/23/14

I've been trying to build up the courage to talk to this guy in my school. And it still hasn't happened yet. I say I'm going to do it but when he passes by I get nervous. Actually, this one time at lunch he passed by my table and I screamed out hi. It was really bad timing though because he had already passed and he didn't even turn around. I felt pretty bad after that. A kid from another table had seen what had happened and he was laughing. It wasn't funny! Well, at least to me it wasn't funny at all! Monday is a new day so I want to try again. It's so intimidating. He's with his friends most of the time. I really can't find a good time to do it.

3/30/14

It is 5:38 in the morning and I have been up for about thirty minutes. I keep waking  up so early! I just want some sleep but I can't get any. I realized I didn't really blog that much for this month. Spring break is coming up some time soon. I know some people's spring break ended already. 

4/9/14

School really sucks more than anything right now. I absolutely hate it. I know I keep complaining about it but it gives me so much anxiety. It's insane how one person can make you feel so horrible. My mood is always ruined by some moron. The other day I started crying because somebody said something mean to me. I don't know how you would define mean and funny. There's a way to be funny by not hurting someone else's feelings. Am I too sensitive? My friends act like it's nothing. They act like they don't care at all. I constantly get something thrown at me all the time. It's usually those boys who are in groups. They think they're so cool. 

Have you guys ever done something because of your friends? I'm sure you have. Last year, I listened to my friend so much. I believed what she told me. Now, I feel like I shouldn't have listened to her at all. The experience put me through so much. In a way, I really want to blame her. I don't see her at school anymore because we go to different schools now. The point is your friends really shouldn't be telling you what to do or influencing you on your decisions. At the end of the day, you're the one that is going to be living your life not your friends.

4/15/14

I kind of don't want to do anything. I spent the day trying to clean out my closet. I still have to clean up my mess. I was looking back before on many things. I realized how much I've changed. I did some crazy things a few years ago. I don't even know what I was thinking of, however, it shaped me into the person I am now. I was stupid and ignorant in sixth grade. It must of been hard for Fabian. Fabian was this guy I was pretty much ''obsessed'' with. Some things just don't work out well. I never want to be that clingy girl again. I can't see, but I will be getting my glasses some time soon. I don't have 20/20 vision anymore.

4/16/14

As you can see, I've changed the font to a bigger size because I can't see. My vision has gotten so bad! Ugh! I'm going to try to avoid the computer after I'm done with this blog post. I've literally been on my phone and computer for way too long these past few days! Yes, I'm on spring break. I'm so glad there's no school. Anyway, I've mention a few times about my problem. I couldn't get the guts to go up to this cute guy. You know I was going to post something I wrote last week about my problem. I had written it, and it was completely finished. But I deleted it by accident. That just made me so mad, however, I do have a picture of the post on my phone. If I have the time I might just retype it. I did end up going up to him. It was so embarassing! I cried afterwards, but I don't regret going up to him at all. It was worth it because it was an experience. Anyone who's scared to go up to that person they've been wanting to talk to for a long time, needs to just go for it. I'm going to post something about it, so keep an eye out for that. Bye guys! Have a good day!