Feelings

I'm so frustrated, angry, depressed, and unhappy. Things have been happening and it's really getting on my nerves. I don't even know what it is anymore. I honestly hate it. People think they could just belittle me. They think they could do whatever they want. Just because I don't fight back doesn't mean karma is not going to get them back for it. I try to say it but it never comes out. My words can never come out. I try to talk but it doesn't work. Writing has always been a way to express what I'm truly feeling. I hate that feeling of nobody understanding. A month ago, I had to deal with this guy. He's honestly taken a huge toll on my life he made me realize so many things. The things he wanted I couldn't give. I didn't know him making him a stranger. I told people and they just turned away. I have to deal with so many ignorant people everyday and that's how my anger builds up. I'm so damn angry about everything and I just want to shout to the sky. I get kicked around and people step on my words. What if I woke up one day and decided to kill myself? You think that's funny? I don't like myself and you talking about my flaws isn't going to make the problem any better. You're just conforming all of my insecurities. I didn't choose what race or skin color I wanted to be. I didn't choose to have fat legs. I was just born this way. When I hear the same thing over and over again it breaks me because I can't hold strong all the time. I'm not going to pretend that everything is fine when it's obviously not. I'm going to beak down on days because I'm so frustrated. Nobody's helping me but that's the way life is. I will scream but my words will just come out the other ear.