Don't Let Me Down

June 12th, 2015

I like to share my thoughts on here. I guess I feel like it's the only place that I can let out some of my emotions. Let's just call this guy Nathan. He gets me a little upset sometimes. I honestly have so many people in my life who.... I can't explain it, but I know how I feel. Well, I put so much faith and hope in him. I only saw the best in him. I know I shouldn't do that anymore. I have known that for a long time that it only hurts me in the end. I love the song "Amazing for a Minute" by Katy McAllister. It explains me in these situations a lot. I get attached so easily. I desire most of the attention that new people in my life give to me. Do I only have myself to blame? I mean did I make myself feel this way? He says, "As time passes by, we become less close." Do you think that's my fault? There were times when I didn't want to talk because I knew that our conversations would only bring and lead to pain. I knew all along but still... I feel like in a way guys lead me on A LOT! I did try to see him as a friend, but you know I can't deny to myself what I truly feel. However, I am kind of confused. Did I actually have feelings for him? I seriously don't know. My mind likes to play games and it always tries to tell me I don't feel anything for him. I really do try not to care, but look at me I still do care. 

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                               As always,
                                                Lisa :)